I Thought You Were Gone

I saw you

And my heart skipped a beat

But not like it used to.

I ran

And I found someone who makes me feel safe

From you.

I feel sick

Sometimes

When I remember what I've done

And that I did it

All for you.

I sometimes wish

People would forgive me

And forget it happened

But they deserve better.

If holding onto sadness

Hatred

Regret 

Keeps you going for now

Who am I to say no?

I made bad choices

Hurt good people

Did everything wrong

And you still haunt me.

But maybe you'll move on

Eventually.

You'll realise you're holding onto nothing

No one

And you'll move on.

For my sake

For yours

Please realise

Sooner rather than later.

I saw you

A few days ago

And my heart skipped a beat,

But not like it used to.