.the mind is a beautiful thing.

It is so incomprehensible And yet I want nothing more. Maybe not forever But I know It is permanent. Make up your mind There's no going back. I want to go away But I don't understand. What do you mean I can't come back After? What do you mean It's a "permanent solution" To my "temporary issue"? I don't get it. I obsess over it. But I don't get it. What do you mean There's no going back? Once you're gone You're gone. I don't want to go forever. But I want to go now.

Am I foolish Or a good person For still caring About your well-being? For still not wanting You to be hurt. Even if you hate me I don't hate you. I don't think I ever could. It tears me up But I will never hate you Even if It feels like You want me to.